Who gets to determine when the old ends and the new begins?
It’s not on the calendar, it doesn't say end this habit and start this one.
It’s not a birthday. It’s an event, big or small, something that changes us. Ideally, that gives us hope, a new way of living and looking at the world, a way of letting go of old habits, old memories. Ha..what total idiotic crap!
When did I stop believing in a new beginning. When did I stop holding on to what was worth holding on to when I started my yearly kernel memory dump. And then it hit me. I have NOTHING worth holding on to. Exactly what I said...total idiotic crap!
As for the HAPPY in all of this bleary eye reformation: Hmmm? Has it ever occurred to anyone that maybe we're not supposed to be happy. Has it ever occurred to any of you that being grateful is a more meaningful way of recognizing what you have for what it is. Can't any of you admire the struggle it takes just to be human? Maybe Thanksgiving is pre New Year for a reason. Be thankful for what we have. For what is familiar. Be thankful for what we know and perhaps for the things that we will never, in our whole complicated, mortal lives never know! To hell with waiting for January 1st to realize that today...yes today, I did not collapse into a mindless puddle in a downward spiral. The fact that I am still standing; now that..that is reason enough to celebrate.
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